Genuine and sincere love.
I am talking more the people who saw the news on TV that next day... the people who run into me and haven't seen me for 3+ years,, people I don't even know,, the first responders. How has this affected them?
I remember Lt. Waters. He was the only person I would trust with my physical care until my Bishop and family got there. No other officer,, no grief counselor that was there,, Just Lt. Waters. I remember the day of the funeral,, EMT's, Police officers, first responders are told not to go.. it makes their entire job real.... puts a face to the names on the paper work, gives the details and the accident scenes a face. He came. He brought his daughter, with him,, and another officer... one I didn't see that night... one I had no clue was there.. the one who was very first on the scene,, who first saw my life laying on the road, and in the dirt on the side of the road. She was there. I remember her. I remember her hugging me and telling me that day how very much that night has affected her.
Fast forward 30 months,, 2 1/2 years,, and I am given a phone number and told someone I met a while ago wants to get in touch with me. (there's more to this story as to how I got her number, or how she put two and two together, and without going into details, lets just say that Sumbot is now working as a cashier at the Smith's where her and I both shop,, and he can't seem to keep his mouth shut!! and leave it at that!)
So I go to Smith's today to get my Bruce and Jolyne fix,, they are my BEST habit... whenever I am feeling down, sad, lonely,, or just need something familiar I go to MY SMITHS!!! (it will always be my smiths! not his!!) And I am talking to Jolyne and this lady and her husband are walking down the isle,, our eyes lock, and Jolyne says,, "that's her!" I pick my jaw up off the floor and walk up to her, she wraps her arms around me and we talk... I have her number,, she has mine,, and we are going to lunch on Tuesday.
It may seem like not much to whomever is reading this.. it may seem like it's no big deal,, BUT
TO ME its a whole bunch of affirmation that family is not the only one who remembers these two pieces of my heart. Affirmation that people I have no clue about continue to pray for me,, to be a peace, and happy, and feel the love of the everyone around me. Affirmation that this has affected so many people,, I don't think I will ever fully understand how many!!
This amazing officer has offered to take me on a ride along,,, YES!!!! Has asked if I would come talk to her squad and share my story. ABSOLUTELY I said YES! A million times yes!!!! I am in tears.. happy tears.. sad tears that this has affected someone on such a high level.. Someone just doing their job. Sad tears because it doesn't seem to have affected the person who caused all this... sigh
I feel like I am rambling,,,,,, this is where I am at today... Life is good,, Life sucks,,, and every once in a while you are blessed enough to meet a real true to life angel... and today,, I met another!!!
Can't wait for Tuesday... <3
