Seven years.

​Woke up solemn today.  Got up because that is what I have done for the 5 last years on this day.  It’s what we do.  We continue to move forward. Carrying the heartache and grief with us. We find happiness. We have guilt. We lean on our friends and loved ones.  I think today is a good day to focus on happiness. Memories. And love.   Crying isn’t weakness. Without love there are no tears.  

Christmas is a hard time for so many.  My goal today is to share some love.  Compliment a stranger.  Put a smile on someone’s face.  And feel the love of my angels. ❤️❤️

Dear Meepaw

He made it here.  Our grandson.  You already know his name is Richard Lucas Johnson.  How I desperately wish he could talk and tell me all the things he learned from you.  I look at him and I see your eyes, and his dad’s mischievousness. Thank you making sure he has dark hair. I struggle with confusing Jake and Levi’s baby pics. 

You’d be so proud of our son. He is just as attentive to Emily as you were to me.  He was completely brought to tears over the thought that his beautiful wife was willing to go through an emergency s-section to bring our grandson into this world. As you already know he’s absolutely perfect.  

I’m so scared.  I’m scared of loving someone again so very much only to have him taken from me.  I’m scared of disappointing our son and daughter-in-law by not being a good enough Meemaw. I wish you were here to help me through this.   I’m glad you’re in heaven to help me through this.  Thank you for all you have taught him and for always watching over us.  Let Jake know,,,,  we all have got this. ❤️😂

grandson #3

Richard Lucas Johnson made his grand debut May 7,2021 and true to the Johnson style, Jake and Emily’s birth plan was thrown out the window and he demanded to come emergency c-section. Mom and baby did great and Meemaw got to meet him on May 10. Mother’s Day. ❤️❤️

This little man has stolen our hearts   I got to spend a whole week with my kids and just enjoyed being able to soak in this little Wookie of ours.

Because it was a longer trip down than normal, I was able to meet up with my dear friend Kim and have lunch and catch up with her (no pic because I suck lol) and Levi’s best friend in elementary school and I went for lunch   Man I love that kid  so much.  All in all a fantastic soul fulfilling week.