Dear Meepaw

He made it here.  Our grandson.  You already know his name is Richard Lucas Johnson.  How I desperately wish he could talk and tell me all the things he learned from you.  I look at him and I see your eyes, and his dad’s mischievousness. Thank you making sure he has dark hair. I struggle with confusing Jake and Levi’s baby pics. 

You’d be so proud of our son. He is just as attentive to Emily as you were to me.  He was completely brought to tears over the thought that his beautiful wife was willing to go through an emergency s-section to bring our grandson into this world. As you already know he’s absolutely perfect.  

I’m so scared.  I’m scared of loving someone again so very much only to have him taken from me.  I’m scared of disappointing our son and daughter-in-law by not being a good enough Meemaw. I wish you were here to help me through this.   I’m glad you’re in heaven to help me through this.  Thank you for all you have taught him and for always watching over us.  Let Jake know,,,,  we all have got this. ❤️😂